It's been awhile since I've written, but things have been a steady, kind of boring busy around here. Jeff is in full swing at the farm, leaving me for a widow most days of the week. It's ok though. I appreciate all he does to bring home the bacon for us! The weather has been on and off nice, just as it always is in Michigan, and Caleb is growing and changing like a weed. Oh yeah...I'm growing like..like..an elephant. Or something large like that. My sleep is very disturbed, and I realize this is just in preparation for the many times I'll be awake at night in a few months. I feel unprepared in some ways for this new baby, but in other ways, I'm hoping my perspective on the newborn/baby stage is different this time. Maybe I'll be able to look at sleepless nights and constant feedings and diaper changes as a fleeting moment. Or maybe not. Only time will tell!
Jeff and I have been contemplating a piece of property for a future home as well. It just seems like life is all about adult choices now. I know we are fortunate to have choices in our life, but man, they are hard for me. There are so many unknowns, and that makes it hard to keep a clear mind. I'm not a very good risk taker, so making choices is that much harder for me.
I suppose life is all about choices and risks. Maybe the older you get, the more clear those become. Maybe I should start doing yoga. Or meditation.
"Being an adult simply means that we now know what we should be doing and we move ahead without supervision and do it, even when we really may not feel much like doing it at the time. And so it is and should be in all aspects and areas of our life."
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